So I was like the fuck with this intuitive eating shit?

“You have to be your own person”

I have some weird-o health issues going on and, while wading through the frustrating sea of contradictory opinions, a health coach friend of mine said,

“You just have to start eating intuitively”

And I was like

Fuck you

I don’t want to have to go to the trouble. I just want everything to work right. I don’t want to have to listen to my body or figure out what it needs or wait to hear the cosmic signals of my intuition. I felt resistant to really being my own person, in the truest sense of the word. Because I didn’t want to take the time to figure it out.

I told her how I thought I had been. I’m, like – the healthiest person you know, on the surface.

I drink raw milk
I’m in a healthy intimate relationship
I eat grass fed beef
I’m sexually satisfied
I eat shit loads of produce, organic of course
I do yoga like a good little white girl
I soak and sprout my grains and beans
I grind my own nut and grain flours
For “health”, but also because the shit tastes better

Like.

Have you ever tasted freshly ground flour made from soaked, sprouted wheat berries? It’s fucking SUBLIME.

So I was like the fuck with this intuitive eating shit.
I feel like I already do that. It’s the only way that I’m not obsessive about food.

I read things all the time, but it’s not like I implement every singe one of them, you know?
I just do what feels right to me and I retain information that intrigues me.

So anyway.

Her question was running in the back of my mind for a few days.

Then this morning I noticed something.

All of the sudden I just had to order this plant-based shake mix. And I just randomly started putting spirulina in it from a jar I’ve had for over a year that’s sat mostly untouched.

I’ve been making these shakes every day.

Recently I’ve come to the conclusion that one of the keys to my healing is the appropriate balance of calcium, magnesium, D3, and K2. I’m healthy on the surface, but there’s more than what meets the eye going on deep inside.

For the first time this morning: I read the nutrition labels of both my shake mix and the spirulina.

And what do they provide? A perfect ratio of calcium, magnesium, D3 and K2.

Interesting, huh?

Okay health coach friend. Sorry to secretly be so cunt-y about your suggestion of intuitive eating.

I’ve been researching healing foods for the glandular systems in my body and at the same time came to find out I have 6 cavities currently, after having had 2 my whole entire life before this. Tooth health is directly related to glandular system health so having both of these at the same time at least made immediate sense.

And the eating plan to heal the body feels so wildly indulgent and supportive.

Another good sign to me.

Because I’ve done lots of things with food in the name of health that were no fun at all. They felt restrictive and difficult, mentally taxing but you do them in the name of “its for your own good”.

I’ve also come to realize that I have absolutely no desire to tell anyone in particular about this. I don’t want anyone’s opinion. I don’t care what anybody thinks. I feel strongly about this course of action and don’t need any outside confirmation.

Which is refreshing.

So hopefully, in six months, I’ll be “that girl” who healed her thyroid and cavities by eating shit loads of raw milk kefir and fish broth and colostrum.

We’ll see……

Cindy – wow! what a journey. Perhaps contrary to this essay, when you make it to the other side, it could be really useful information for others.

Jena Schwartz You’re already that girl. So awesome. And isn’t it so often the case — the bigger and more stubborn the resistance to something, the more likely it is exactly what we need.

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